It was such an honor to be doula to Matt, Megan, and Baby Atticus. It was humbling to see a husband and wife so dedicated to one another and to their baby. The endurance and struggle Megan went thru, to try and provide her baby the birth she felt was best, was immense. It was inspiring to be witness to her coping - to see her roaring her way thru labor humming and moaning, rocking and swaying side-to-side, back-n-forth on the bed, in the tub, in the shower- allowing herself to surrender to the power of birth. I will never forget the heartbreaking look on Megan's face when she was told she will need to have surgery. I know the end result is a million miles away from where they thought and hoped it would be, but personally I will never forget being amongst a circle of women in the presence of an incredibly powerful lioness who thundered her way thru every surge, and her devoted husband who provided incredible support, focus, assuring words, gentle touches, and constant devotion and attention. Megan, thank you for sharing your experience of challenge, healing, and love. "Whatever birth you end up with or choose, becoming a mother is a strong and brave act – it’s the beginning of the selfless gift of unconditional love you give to your baby. " - Megan By Megan Stark I’ve been a doula since 2012, trained in both birth and postpartum support and I am obsessed with birth. But let me start at the very beginning. When I was born, I was diagnosed with pulmonic stenosis, which for me was a condition that required immediate emergency surgery. I was whisked away to NYC to have open chest surgery, which as a new mom, I can’t even wrap my head around how incredibly terrifying this must have been for my parents. I healed well, and became an avid rock climber in my teens. After college I completed an internship in Boston, and while there I suffered from a TIA (stroke). This alerted my cardiologist that perhaps something else was going on with my heart. She discovered a hole in my heart – which is a far more common condition than my pulmonic stenosis. After my internship I moved to the New River Gorge in WV with my future husband. I wanted to learn more about the hole in my heart and how it might affect future pregnancies, but the health insurance laws prevented me from obtaining health insurance for some time (pre-existing condition clause). Once I did obtain insurance, I had to wait a whole year to be seen by a specialist for my heart (again the pre-existing condition clause which has now been ruled illegal by the new health insurance laws). Finally – in 2010, I was able to learn more details about the hole in my heart and what it might mean to pregnancy and birth. I was told that the hole was of such a size that pregnancy would be dangerous – and so began my journey toward providing a provider that could close the hole without another open chest surgery. My husband and I moved back to my home state of NJ, and in 2011 I had the ¾ in. hole in my heart closed via a cardiac catheter procedure. The most amazing thing happened after my procedure – I no longer felt like I was suffocating when I exercised! I had never quite realized I felt his way, since I never knew any differently. In the summer of 2012 I finally got pregnant, we were excited and elated, and shared our news with my family in one of those adorable Pinterest worthy ways. At seven weeks we lost that pregnancy, and I was devastated. Miscarriage is a cruel and sad event, and one so many people experience but it is so commonly written off, ignored and covered up. If you have experienced a miscarriage (nearly 30% of all pregnancies end in miscarriage), please know that you are not alone, and if you are struggling with this loss seek support from your friends, family or a professional. It is a true and profound loss, and you are absolutely allowed to mourn that loss. As I said, I was devastated. So I decided to re-focus my attention, and began my doula training in 2013. Training to become a doula was this incredibly intense and powerful experience – just like birth! I loved attending births, and was feeling positive and excited about becoming pregnant again. In the summer of 2013 I achieved that goal, and gun shy this time, told our family in the quietest way possible. This time, I was sick – soooo sick. I was bloated and hormonal, and miserable and scared. I was terrified we would lose this pregnancy, and wanted to keep it as quiet as possible. At 12 weeks we went for our ultrasound. There was no baby. Our pregnancy was a “complete molar pregnancy” and my sickness was related to my out of control pregnancy hormones. I lost my mind. As a doula, I knew about these types of pregnancies, but they are rare, and having made it to 12 weeks, I was so hopeful that this pregnancy would stick. A molar pregnancy is dangerous, so a D&C is necessary and follow up blood tests are required. Women who have suffered from a molar pregnancy must also hold off on trying to get pregnant again for some time. This is to be sure that if the pregnancy hormones go up again, that Doctors can be sure it is not from pregnancy and instead from the molar pregnancy. (While rare, molar pregnancies can turn into a form of cancer, so the blood tests monitor that the hormones are going down and not up.) Here's the link for support group I found: FB.com/groups/mymolarpregnancy/ Another year passed and we finally decided to try again, one last time. And this time it worked. We were due in April 2015, and I had one of the most amazing pregnancies. I wasn’t sick, I felt great and I was so hopeful! I also began working from my doula trainer, Debra Pascali-Bonaro, and was greatly immersed in all things birth and babies. It was such an amazing time! I was one of the most over prepared mamas-to-be you could imagine. I hired my doula co-worker and friend Rachel Connolly-Kwock as my doula, prepped my husband with too much information, took Debra’s new childbirth class, “Pain to Power”, and found an awesome midwifery group “The Midwives of New Jersey” which have an incredible water birth record. I wanted providers that I knew I could trust. As a birth doula, I had heard and saw so many women who felt coerced or disrespected in their births, and I wanted to avoid questioning my providers motivations, after everything I’d been through, I needed to know that they too wanted to avoid a cesarean as much as possible. I planned a natural, intervention free water birth and wanted to labor as home as long as possible with my doula and husband. When I went into labor early Saturday morning, I was sleeping on the couch (at 41 weeks, while still quite comfortable, I was having some trouble sleeping). I worked through the surges on my own for a couple of hours, but was suffering from (what I later realized was) really intense back labor, decided to wake my husband for more support. At 9am things were progressing so quickly, we decided to call our doula. Let me say, that when your doula shows up, there is an incredible feeling of relief knowing you now have the professional, knowledgeable, kind and understanding support of a trained doula by your side to support you and your birth partner. We labored at home until after noon that day, and then made a plan to meet up with my lovely midwife Chrisy at their office. The office was closed that day, so it was particularly peaceful to labor with my support team. I was encouraged by my midwife to hydrate, take some honey, and eat as we knew labor could still be quite a while. We decided to check my dilation and I was just about 6cm. After a couple of hours we decided to move to the hospital, as I was desperate to get into the tub! I labored in the shower and the tub for hours, but I was not progressing. My contractions were not coming at a steady clip, my back was killing me, and I was becoming discouraged. My doula, husband, 2 midwives and midwife assistant were incredibly encouraging and supportive. We agreed that breaking my waters might help my contractions to become steadier, assisting me in progressing. At this point I was still only 6cm, nothing had changed. Hours later, I was done. I mean done. I asked for an epidural, something I swore I would never do. My lovely midwives distracted me, suggesting we instead try a very tiny amount of Pitocin, to see if we could get things going. I did not want this, but was feeling exhausted beyond anything I had ever felt before. I knew if my midwives were suggesting it, they felt it was likely needed. The goal was a vaginal birth above all else, and I knew that I would not be able to go on like this forever. Along with the Pitocin, I agreed to another drug that would allow me to rest between contractions. A couple of hours later, I roared awake during an intense surge. I was DONE- and this time I meant it! We decided to check my dilation again, and I was fully dilated. After some time, the midwife asked if I wanted to push. I had absolutely no urge to do so, which I thought was odd. But, ready for baby to arrive, I got to it! I pushed in every position you could think of. On my bed legs up, legs down, on all fours, standing, squatting, up, down and practically inside out! I was falling asleep between surges, completely worn out – my strong and amazing husband was literally holding my sleeping body up. Two hours later there was no progress, the baby’s heart rate was decelerating, there was meconium present and I was making no progress. The backup OBGYN was called in, and I was told that a cesarean was now on the table. My wonderful midwives knew how much I did not want this. They gave me the time and space to consider my options. I knew when my midwife Cindy told me that it would be safe to try a little longer, but that she really felt that nothing was going to change, that she meant it from her heart. Sometimes births take a turn from what we anticipated. When a woman has a cesarean, she often feels she has failed herself and her support team. This is so sad but the reality is that we end up needing to ask for self-forgiveness. For a mother, who dreams of natural birth, to be told that your dreams have been dashed is heartbreaking on so many levels... You wanted the experience for you and your baby, you wanted to know that experience other women speak of- of birthing your baby and holding them skin-to-skin, a moment when all time stands still. You are scared and don't want surgery. You are aware of the benefits of natural birth from reading studies that show the hormones released during the birthing phase may be critical to emotional development, the shaping and molding of the cranium can ignite cranial-sacral balance, the baby being exposed to microbiomes can provide a lifetime of strong gut health and improved immune system. It is not to say some of the health benefits of natural birth can not be nurtured over time in a surgically born baby, but when you are told you are going to have a cesarean these are just some of the thoughts that flood your mind.... and it is devastating. Most prominent and most upsetting is the sudden lack of control - you were in control of your body (sort of, right - as much as we can be birthing a baby) and you were looking forward to responding to your body and baby's needs as the birth process progressed, but then all of a sudden your body, your baby, your birth, became my body, my baby, their birth. Defeated and exhausted, I apologized to my husband for not being able to do it, and agreed to the cesarean section. My husband of course thought that was silly, he was so proud of me for what I had accomplished - but at the time I felt like a lemon. My dream of my intervention free water birth had been lost earlier that evening, and now my vaginal birth was gone too. As I was rolled into the OR, I was mentally numb. The surgery is quick, bright, intense and bizarre. All around you are strangers, your partner isn’t allowed in the room for the prep, your doula isn’t allowed in at all, and after all those hours of intensity, your body is numb. I feel so lucky that my midwife Chrisy was in the room during the prep, which for me was the scariest part. She held my hand, talked to me, and kept me company as I prepared for the birth of my baby. Finally, my husband was ushered in, and what felt like seconds later, my baby was born. A quick flash of the baby over the curtain, screaming and purple and my husband was rushed over to the baby. He was able to bring the baby to me for a quick kiss before the two of them were taken to the nursery. Another dream, of immediate skin to skin time and delayed cord clamping was taken away. Birth via cesarean in an amazingly quick process, but the closing up is tedious and lengthy. Without my baby or husband there, it was sad and lonely. Again my midwife’s presence was so comforting. She continued to hold my hand, chat when I needed to, and let me know what was happening when I asked. Everyone in the OR is concerned about your body, but my midwife was there for my emotional support, and I am so grateful for that, in a way I will never be able to express fully with words. Finally, finally, I was rolled to recovery, and sometime thereafter reunited with my husband. This time when I saw my baby I was able to hold him and kiss him. He nursed immediately, was so tiny, beautiful and perfectly healthy. So much love was in the room as I was surrounded by my doula Rachel, midwives Cindy and Chrisy, and midwife assistant, Ashley. Everyone was exhausted, and the outcome was not what anyone had wanted or predicted. The OBGYN confirmed that the baby was OP, which confirmed what all had suspected and explained my back labor, lack of progress, and the fact that I never felt an urge to push. OP babies can be born vaginally, but Gail Tully of Spinning Babies explains that OP babies are unpredictable – some can be born vaginally “sunny side up”, some turn during labor and some get stuck and need to be born by cesarean. So now, I heal. I forgive myself for not having a vaginal birth. I come to terms with my cesarean scar. I trust that my providers did all they could for my “dream birth.” I learn to not obsess about the health implications for a cesarean baby. I talk about my birth and my disappointment. And I nurse, like crazy, because I need a victory, I need to know that my body isn’t lemon, because it isn’t. Birth is unpredictable, cesareans can be necessary, and moms are strong. Whatever birth you end up with or choose, becoming a mother is a strong and brave act – it’s the beginning of the selfless gift of unconditional love you give to your baby. I want to thank my midwives: Cindy – for her wisdom and experience and because I knew I could trust that she had the same goals for my birth as me. Chrisy – for her kindness, warmth, and comfort when I needed it most. Ashley – the midwife assistant, for her beautiful photography and the way she told me I was strong when I needed to hear it most. Rachel – my doula, for always knowing what I needed when I needed it, for supporting my birth wishes, my husband, and for taking care of me, even now as I heal. To Matt – my rock, my strength. For literally and figuratively holding me up when I needed it most. Photo Credits: Midwives of NJ & Matt & Megan Stark
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6/4/2015 0 Comments Courtney's Birth StoryCourtney's story was so amazing because she had no expectations or desire for a waterbirth but when her midwife acted quickly to fill the tub yet and Courtney's veins responded slowly to iv fluids, she arrived somewhere she did not think she would be. Thank you Courtney for sharing your story.... I was due May 1st. This is my birth story: My contractions started at 5:30pm the evening before and they were very intense and strong but were not consistent or close together. 18 minutes apart, half hour apart, 12 minutes, 11 minutes apart. They never got closer together than 11 min apart so I called the midwife on call at 2 am (Lisa Milstein at Avalon Midwives) who said to call back when there 5 to 7 minutes apart. I called her again at 9 AM with the same news no updates and she suggested to set up an appointment for me to go to the office to get checked. She said we will just take it from there. I started using my TENS machine to deal with my contractions. Joanne Cunha was going to try to be available to deliver my baby but she was working in the office that day so she met with me at the office to check me. I told her that I lost my mucous plug yesterday and that my contractions are really intense. She said since the contractions are so far apart that this could be false labor and contractions can last for a few days like this. She wanted to do an internal check but basically suggested that we go home and wait until the contractions are closer together. I was so disappointed I really wanted to have my baby on May 1st- I love that date. Joanne said before you leave let's just do an internal check, she said wow!!! you are 6 cm dilated right now!! She said you are going to have his baby today! She said if she breaks my water right now the contractions will be closer together and everything will start progressing normally. I was so afraid for her to break my water I was afraid it would hurt. She told me I wouldn't feel it, so she broke my water with a little pin prick on the end of a rubber glove. It didn't hurt at all but I started gushing water immediately and she put a giant chuck pad folded up in my pants lol so we can drive to the hospital without getting water everywhere. She said she wouldn't be available to deliver my baby today but Kim Kirby will be there and she is great. I love Kim I was so happy to hear that she was on call!! As soon as we left Avalon and walked out to the elevator the contractions started and they were five minutes apart the way they are supposed to be. My TENS machine really helped. We got to the hospital at 11am and I had to pee so bad. When I came out of the bathroom Rachel my Doula was in the waiting area with Rob! I was so happy to see her! I started telling her what happened at Avalon just when a big strong contraction came, she said don't worry about telling me the story let's just get through this contraction. Then I saw Kim with her iced coffee (which she never got to finish ) she gave me a kiss on the cheek and we were so happy to see each other. She said let's get you into a room! Do you want a tub? I said yes. We were in the room that we saw during the tour. They sat me down on a yoga ball which was so relaxing and took away all the pressure. They were trying to put the belt on monitor on my belly but could not get it in the right position. Rachel was rubbing my back softly and using aromatherapy- citrus smelled so nice ! I told her I wanted an epidural and Kim said that they have to first flush me with Iv fluids for half hour and then they have to request the epidural. That takes a lot of time and Kim couldn't find my vein to get the IV fluids going I have black and blues all over my arms. She asked me if I wanted to get into the tub to get through the contractions more easily. I told Rob that they are tricking me I don't think I will be able to get the epidural. I wasn't panicking I don't think it really clicked in my mind what that would mean. Once I got in the tub I wouldn't be able to get an epidural quickly. Rachel looked at me and said think about the opportunity that you have right now you can do this! When I got into the tub it was so relaxing and warm it's unbelievable how wonderful it felt. The temperature was absolutely perfect. During contractions I would press the whirlpool button. Before I got into the tub I kept yelling that I feel pressure! I feel pressure! Kim said what kind of pressure ? I kept yelling I don't know I don't know I don't know I think it's the head. Kim told me that she felt the head and that it was right there! She said there's no point in getting out of the tub the head is right there! She told me I could start pushing. I kept yelling I don't know I don't know I don't know I don't know how do I know when to push? I felt a contraction and I pushed and she said we see the head!! She said keep pushing I pushed again and I yelled I feel the ring of fire I feel the ring of fire! As I was pushing the head I felt my whole crotch stretch and burn. By that time the entire head was out I heard the nurse say okay shoulders are next. She told me to give a big push she said do it harder that's not hard enough! I pushed again and she said one shoulder was out I felt like my entire insides, my pelvic bones were separating as I felt the baby move through. I was yelling beastly sounds and started screaming get it out ! get it out! Why aren't you getting it out ?!! I don't know understand why you cant get it out!! I gave a long push, the push was so long I couldn't believe that the push lasting that long and the rest of the baby came out. I went from intense horrific pain to complete bliss with no pain at all. The moment the baby came out there was absolutely no pain. Rob was crying because he said the birth was so beautiful just like on TV. He said the water was completely clear no blood, no poop! When the placenta came out that's when the tub turned red. She was born and they put her right on my chest in the warm water. She was beautiful 8 lbs. 13 oz. 20 3/4 inches. Rob cut the cord. We got to the hospital at 11 and I delivered at 1:06. I was really frustrated with how much pain is involved with the pushing the midwife said I only pushed for six minutes. She said stop complaining and can you just be proud of yourself? Look what you just did! You just had an unmedicated water birth- do you know how many people want to do that?! You are so strong and had so much control. You did an amazing thing today and you're still intact, no tearing! That's amazing! Thank you for sharing your story Courtney.... It is so interesting the details of what we remember - for Courtney it was the words and the pain and the bliss :). Bring more bliss! I remember Courtney saying at our postpartum visit that she was so amazed how, with water birth, baby just went from being inside you to being on your belly - without interruption. Also, there were a few funny details... Courtney said thank goodness their wasn't a tour or something going on outside her door and I told her, there was- it all happened so quickly that the midwife needed to remind the nurse to close the door right as the maternity tour was walking by. It was also funny when Courtney said "This is orgasmic!' when they put the ice pack on her crotch or right after the birth when Courtney said "I feel so powerful, I feel like I could punch someone in the face!" I said okay Courtney - if that is how you want to use your power! May all postpartum mothers feel so powerful to want to punch someone in the face. Courtney tells me shops closed after baby #2 but I am secretly hoping to attend more of their births. To read Courtney's Tips & Tricks on early motherhood, visit her blog Angelic Treasure https://angelictreasure.wordpress.com/
Thank you Courtney (& Rob & Lucas & Rosa Lia!) for sharing your story! I of course wish for all women and, personally, all my clients to have such easy and uncomplicated beautiful births and if presented with more challenging births - I wish for safe and healthy motherbabies. May we all be happy and healthy at the end of the day(s). 5/23/2015 Every Woman Writes Her Own Birth StoryThis is the story of what I learned giving birth in a teaching hospital.... Some time before I became a childbirth worker but some time after I witnessed calves being born on a farm, I gave birth to our baby boy. It was a beautiful sunny day in May in New York City. At the time I did not know about doulas and natural birth alternatives, but I knew I did not want any medications. I didn’t want medications because I’m a bit of a nature girl and I was concerned they would intervene and slow down the natural process. I figured if it was just one day I could bear it. I did know enough to seek out a midwife at our hospital, however in my last trimester I risked out of using midwifery care due to gestational diabetes I was using the local, public hospital at the time I became pregnant, I did not have health insurance and when I asked my Obstetrician how much it would be to pay out of pocket for the prenatal care and actual birth, the answer was around $20K. So I visited a public hospital just a few blocks from my apartment to see if they could help. I learned about the cost of medical bills. Can you guess which New York City hospital it was? It was founded in 1736 and is the oldest public hospital in the US. Its psychiatric wing has a famous history and recently in 2014 it was in the new for successfully taking on ebola patient, and Doctors Without Borders’ MD, Craig Spencer. If you guessed Bellevue Hospital you are correct! Bellevue took me in and I received medicaid, which I was embarrassed to tell my mother and family because they would not agree with going on medicaid, however I didn’t have a lot of options, so I did what I needed to do for the health of my baby. When my sister asked my mother who was paying for the healthcare, my mother told my sister, “You are, dearie.” (my sister was a New York resident). Thank you New York residents! So the morning of, I was getting ready for my office temp job when my body produced a giant gush of fluids on the bathroom floor! Was it pee or was it amniotic fluid? I felt pretty sure it was fluids, so called the hospital around 8:00 a.m. and they said to come in, so naturally I postponed going in and opted to clean my apartment instead. This was pre-doula days so I didn’t know much, but I knew NOT to go the hospital right away, especially if your water has broken but you are not contracting. Around 10:00 a.m., I waddled up and over the 7 blocks and 2 avenues from 20th and 3rd, on Gramercy Park South, to 27th and 1st in Kip’s Bay. I went to buy some milk from a street cart vendor when I arrived at 27th and 1st, and he wanted to gift it to me. He actually got kind of offended when I paid. I should have let him gift it. I learned a lesson in grace. In I went to the hospital with my milk, red medical card, and little overnight bag. Bellevue is a teaching hospital, affiliated with NYU and I can safely say the birth of my son provided lots of teaching opportunities for lots of residents. In triage there was the intern who tried and tried to put the large gauge IV into my RIGHT hand only to find out about 30 mins later that he was supposed to put a smaller gauge IV into my LEFT hand, where he tried and tried again. That day, an intern learned where and how to put in an IV. Around 11:00 a.m. someone must have checked me because they said I wasn’t contracting and I wasn’t dilated, so they wanted to give me Pitocin. I called and let my fiancee, and now husband, know that I was at the hospital, but having a very strong work ethic (never misses a day of work type of guy), he thought nothing of saying he’d be there as soon as work was done. For some reason I didn’t really care as I was satisfied to labor without his presence - without a daddy either not knowing what to do (hire a doula if you want your partner to learn how to be more involved!), or seeing me such an intense state. They admitted me to labor and delivery where I was watched over by nice nurse. I don’t recall her name but she helped me breath. Since I was not contracting, they wanted to give me some artificial oxytocin known as Pitocin or pit. Now as a birth doula, a labor support person, I know many other ways to get nature's oxytocin hormone to release (as well as the negative side effects!), but not having a clue about anything because we only took one parenting class at Bellevue, I agreed. Next thing I knew, all I can see are my white knuckles gripping the bed rail and my nurse saying, "Ms. Rachel, you need to breath for baby! Breath for your baby!" It was a command and I’m glad she reminded me, because otherwise I definitely would have forgotten to breath for long periods of time. I learned about my own strength that day. They kept offering pain meds but I was concerned they would slow things down and I didn't want the whole process spiraling downward (I later learned was called the "Cascade of interventions"). As it turns out, I was glad I didn’t have any pain medication because I could feel just how horrible these chemical induced contractions were. Pitocin contractions are much more forceful than a natural contraction, which is more of a wave – Pitocin ones are more of a strong spike. Being able to feel the contractions made me realize how strong they were – much too strong – how could my baby breath? Now I understand more how it works and how during labor the baby and its cord (supplying oxygen and nutrients) gets kind of squished during contractions and the baby’s oxygen supply gets cut off until the contraction is over when the bay catches its breath again. If I’d had pain medication I would not have felt how strong the contractions were and know how my baby was not getting a break from being squished. I said, ‘turn it down, turn it down” I wasn’t getting a break, they were on top of one another! After several hours of labor I said I couldn’t take it anymore and I wanted pain medication. A doctor came in – like a real doctor I think (not a student) - and told me I was all the way open and let’s do this. Okay. Let's do this. It was close to 6:00 p.m. and my fiancee arrived around that time, but all I remember is his washed out red shirt with a constellation of little white bleach stains that he wore. I asked him to stand at my head and shoulders. (I secretly replaced this shirt with new one sans bleach stains after). The local residents also arrived - in came, what seemed like no less than 15 residents and interns to see this crazy lady on pit with no pain meds deliver her baby (it was probably closer to 8-9 interns). It was a wall of white coats - short and long. They all stood there watching, framing the room. I didn’t really care how many people were present – I don’t know why. My mother, mother to 6 children, always used to say, all modesty goes out the window when you have a baby and I found that to be true - I really didn’t care who or what was in the room. As long as me and my baby could breath and my fiancee was at my head and shoulders, I didn’t care. I know this would not be true for many other women who desire privacy. The attending was present and she was lovely and very encouraging. I don’t remember much from the pushing phase other than it was really exhausting. I was so tired from laboring all day and the pushing phase was so intense and required so much energy. I felt I could NOT do it! Now when I coach moms, I am glad I know just how exhausted they are when they need to push their baby out, so I can support them the right way. It is hard to imagine the exhaustion. I learned how it feels to have absolutely zero energy left and be told you have to bicycle up a giant hill anyway, on a hot day. The attending told me I was a good mom and I hadn't even had my baby yet. She made me feel so good with just a few words of encouragement here and there. Our baby boy was born at 6:30 pm. Our hearts completely exploded with love and joy upon welcoming our son. Whisked away to nursery because I was “high risk” – I asked my husband to follow them as I didn’t want a switched at birth scenario or anything - haha protective mother I guess! They returned baby soon after and with it my fiancee brought a pint of Vanilla Swiss Almond ice cream, my favorite and something I’d gone without for months due to the gestational diabetes. Thank you Steve! Baby took right to breastfeeding and soon after, my mom in law arrived and looked with such treasure on her new grandson – it was a site to behold! My parents came the next day and that will always be one of my favorite and most treasured memories is my mother and father coming to meet my new baby – my son and then 3 years later, my daughter. Now that my mother is gone, I treasure those moments even more. In my doula role, whenever a grandparent visits a mom right after the birth, I think how the parents will look back on that as one of their favorite memories and they will miss the grandparents some day. Of course, I cannot say that, but I try to do whatever I can to contribute to them enjoying the moment as much as they can.
So, to me and my Irish sense of humor, the birth was a comedy of errors. I could probably write the same story through a traumatic birth lens and getting poked with IVs, provided not comfort measure, having a classroom full of residents present, but I really don’t feel that way - I feel I had a pretty good birth because it was fast and positive and I could feel what was happening in my body. I learned each birthing woman writes her own story. |